choosing happiness

I can preach all day and night about the power of the self and choosing your mood, and not letting other people's negativity affect you.  I haven't been doing a very good job in applying it to my own life how ever. i let myself get bummed down so many time in day.

I compare myself to everyone else all day, everyday. 

as a pisces, i hold a great quality and that is to be observant. 

a quality as much as a curse because i like to look at outfits and pick off things that i would like to find and add to my own closet, but i also look at women's bodies. 

the gym freak that i am, i love fitness and i love to look and feel good in my body. it's been a long time that I've been all too conscious of the skin bag i carry around.

i have had a rough time accepting the possibility that my body may not be made to stay slim all my life. i have to accept that like the women in my family, i could possibly gain some weight.

i choose a lifestyle that fights against that and i think i might be winning this battle. 

its as much a mental battle as it is to get in some fitness in during the day.

i have to keep a sane mind in order to have a sane body.

Today i am satisfied with how i look.

satisfaction is a great start. 

i would like to one day be able to say i love it, and i feel like I'm on the right track, but not quite there yet. and thats okay. i'm trying very hard to be a positive person.

its so easy to get sucked down!

but today i've woken up with a good energy. 

I've been listening to alicia key's girl on fire song and oh boy that song gets me!

I'm making it a point today to stay in a good mood. if i can tell other people to not let the mood of other affect their own, i should be able to show the example.

here's a little list of things that put me in a good mood:

• the gym (a good session or a good run)
• Phil from liquid nutrition (such a nice guy)
• seeing a cute little dog :)
• going tanning (light therapy is a real thing)
• when my iPod makes an awesome playlist when i shuffle all the songs
• getting to laugh with my friends

so thats my two cents for today. I'm going to make myself a great lunch to bring to school and get my butt into a tanning bed and then the gym!

i hope you all have a great day and I'm giving you homework:

try every morning to say one thing out loud that makes you happy.

and then hold onto the smile it brings to your lips. 

smiles are contagious.

speak soon xo